sweet.memory.of.a.dreamer

i lay a wake alone at night sorrow fills my eyes but im not strong enough to cry, i guess thta my disgiz, im left with no shoulder bt evry1 wants to lean on me, i guess im their soldier bt whuz gonna b  mine???

it thot that if some1 close to u does something worng nd u forgive thm withowt question tht if or wen u make the same mistke theyll forgive u too...i was wrng ..i learnt the hard way...bt is that fair does tht mean tht u shuldnt hav forgivn them in the first place to save the pain of bein rejectd later on???...as confusion is fillin ma heart im wondrin if it ws worth it in the first place...bt ive always believd in the saayin..'' never let some1 u care about cry nd nt have a shoulder to lean on no matter now many times theyv left u hanging''...so many things have happend to make me doubt this bt i stil believ....